Well I went to see the doc today for my final physical before the Gastric Bypass. It went as well as can be expected for the doc telling you your borderline diabetic and if you didn't have this surgery soon you'd probably be full blown diabetes in the next couple years.
He did push my surgery date back by 1 day so it's now July 31st. I am pretty pumped. I can't wait to be liberated from this prison of fat I am in. At the end of the visit the doc pulled out a lil camera that he could take video w/ pointed at Soma and I and asked me a couple questions. The first questions I can't remember but that last one I sure can as I just about broke down answering it. What he told me to do was look into the camera and tell myself from 6 months down the line that is having a bad day due to say a grouchy pouch or dumping syndrome and tell him why your doing it. My answer was some what surprising. Ok well maybe not so much surprising but the chills it sent through me answering it. I told him that I was doing this for my kids. My son is going to be 5 in 1 month and I can't even take my fat ass out to play catch more then 5 mins. What type of dad is that. Not a good one in my opinion. I told myself to remember what it was like to live being 424 pds. How it felt like you were in prison and it was your own doing.
It really made me reflect on everything in my life that brought me to the sitution and knowing how I got there I know that will teach me what not to do in the future to put myself back in that place.
Well time to run. Be safe.
Peace,
Matt
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